OK, Lord!

OK, Lord!

These were the words to my Father in Heaven. I am not worthy and I do not feel adequate to write and guide other men on spiritual leadership. I am not eloquent in speech and I am pretty sure grammar was my worst subject in school. I had no intention of writing a book and if you were to ask me five years ago I would have said you were crazy. Over the years I started to relent my battle, I would catch myself jotting down notes on my phone of a passage that spoke to me and how I related to it. Before I knew it I had enough material for a book. It was in September of 2021 that I really began to write. Some weeks I would write with ease and some weeks I wanted to throw my hands in the air and just give up.

For inspiration I would read other Christian literature and found that I was not alone in my struggle. Most, if not all stuggled. Reading Steve Farrar’s writings probably encouraged me more than others. He just had a way about his writing that brought me comfort. He was REAL GUY with REAL STRUGGLES with which I could relate. But he did not give up. He kept going and his writings have touched men all over the world. I do not have the same expectation of my writing or even feel that I am in the same ballpark as this man, but I do know God told me to write, and I do not feel he told me to do so for no reason. I believe my story has a purpose and I am just being obedient and sharing my story.

In the introduction of his book Point Man, Steve Farrar recalls praying that 100,000 men would read his book. He said he came to this number because when he was younger his dad took him to a college football game and he saw what it looked like to have 100,000 people in one place. He prayed Lord, if only this number of men would read my book. I will not lie and say I did not steal this prayer, but I did change it a little. I prayed Lord, if it be your will, let this book be read by 100,001 men. Yes, I added a 1. But if it is not your will, let just that 1 come to know you through it. So although I would love for 100,000 men to read my book, my true prayer is that if I can touch just 1 to come into a relationship with Jesus, just 1 to draw closer to Jesus, just 1 to spiritually lead his family, then it will be purpose fulfilled.